well...i have successfully completed 2 count them 2 full weeks of college...i know i know...laugh all you want but after being out for almost 7 years it was H A R D!!! bu t well super easy schedule...MOn day i have class from 1-4 then 630-910---french, composition, and Film...Tues and Thurs 1100-1215 only...Literature...and Wed 1-4 french and comp- and friday is sooo super sweet i only have one class...3-4 Compostion whic is so far my fav any way... Well i am finally getting into the swing of things and am finding something lacking though...although i am perfectly content with my life anyone out there who knows me knows i am kind of well an idiot in the love cadegorie i keep falling hard for those who dont fall back and well i finally gave up about 9 months ago after a really unusual friendship...so i finally found myself content with singledom...until now.... as i come to grips with my disease (bell's Palsey) I also come to grips with losing the one thing i thought was my best feature...my smile...and also my lonliness begins to creep in...i see all my friends hooking up either casually or steadily and it makes me wonder what is and has always been wrong with me...i am not saying i am ready to go out and get hitched or laid, merely wish to have someones head turned by me...someone to watch movies with and cuddle with...hold hands and all around experience the world with....I know i am merely hearing the fading sound of my bilogical clock but still, i dont wanna be an old maid...but alas i ramble...i also fear that when someone does get interested, it may only end up like so many others...broken and hurt and alone again...but what is it they say...but to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all...i hope thats true...although it doesnt feel like it right now...WOW...deep and depressing...not normally like this...oh well need to rant somewhere....So well hope yall have great day...DONT LET THE MAN GET YOU DOWN!!!